Death by Leathal Injection
From The Heart Of One Mother to Another
by Christine Colebeck: [email protected]
Today is my daughter's sweet 16th birthday but we will not be celebrating. Instead I will light a
candle and when I blow it out I will make a wish in my daughter's memory. My wish is for all
mother's worldwide, that you will educate yourselves and that you make informed choices so that you
may prevent unnecessary tragedy and be spared from my pain.
LAURA'S STORY
After 41 weeks of pregnancy On July 27th 1986 a perfect and healthy little baby Laura Marie, made
her entrance into the world. We were welcomed home by family and friends anxiously waiting to meet
the new family member. They showered her with so many beautiful, little tiny, pink dresses, we joked
that she would never be able to wear them all, in one lifetime.
Our lives changed completely and now revolved around, stroller walks in the park, visiting
friends, changing diapers, night feedings and shopping for more little pink dresses. We were parents
now, we had a family and life was absolutely perfect.
I took Laura for several baby check-ups at the pediatrician. She was a kind and gentle, older
woman. At age, 3 months old the pediatrician was very pleased with Laura's development, weight gain
and vaccinated her with DPT OPV. I didn't even question her, I knew that all my friend's babies had
this same vaccine and "all good mother's" vaccinated their children to protect them. I
left the pediatrician's office and walked home. Laura was very fussy, which was unusual.
She was crying loudly all the way home, in the stroller. When we got home, I realized she had
urinated so heavily she wet everything in the stroller. Then her cry turned into screaming and she
developed a fever, her leg was very swollen, red and felt hot. I called the pediatrician who told me
this was "normal" and to give her baby tempra. I gave her baby Tempra and I felt better,
that the pediatrician had assured me this was normal.
Laura continued to scream and I could no longer console her. My every instinct told me this was
not normal but I was young with my first child and trusted the doctor. I could not hold Laura in my
arms because she screamed louder as any movement of her leg seemed to cause her terrible pain. I put
her in the swing and she cried herself to sleep. I was so relieved, the tempra was working and the
doctor must have been right. I began to feel silly for all my worrying. A short time later, Laura
woke up screaming and spent the evening screaming and sleeping on and off.
She had no appetite and nothing made her stop crying. Finally it was bedtime and she cried in her
crib, until she fell asleep. She had never cried herself to sleep before and I felt very bad for
letting her but if I held her, she screamed louder. My husband came home from work and I told him
about everything that had happened that day. Laura was sleeping soundly in her crib and we were both
relieved that she seemed to be feeling better and decided not to worry... I should have worried.
In the morning I awoke and was startled to realize my husband had slept in for work. I
immediately knew something was wrong and the worry from the previous night, came rushing back to me.
I quickly ran to her crib, with a feeling of dread. She did not look right. I closed my eyes tight
and opened them again, and considered the possibility that this was a dream but when I opened my
eyes she looked dead.
I went into shock and after that, much of this day remains a blur. I touched her and she was very
warm. I screamed for my husband to call 911. I watched as he performed CPR, my body was frozen and I
couldn't move. He tried to revive our child to no avail. He was shouting for me to open the door for
the paramedics, I was temporarily jolted back to reality and I went and opened the door. I could now
move but couldn't speak.
I just stood there numbly shaking my head, feeling completely helpless as dozens of paramedics,
police and firemen rushed past me into our home. I didn't cry, and I wanted to scream at them to
leave her alone but I couldn't speak. She was on the floor and they were shocking her tiny body, in
the little bedroom with the yellow painted walls and clown wallpaper. I stood there praying in my
head, that they would just leave her alone, that they would get out of her bedroom and that I would
wake up from this horrible dream.
Then I heard someone saying there was a faint pulse and I suddenly felt hopeful, she was rushed
from the house in an ambulance. It was then that the homicide detectives led us into another room
and the interrogation began.
They decided that my husband and I needed to be questioned in separate rooms. I immediately
realized they suspected that we had done this to our child. We all know that perfect children do not
suddenly die, for no reason. I was silent, I had already decided in my own mind that this was
somehow all my fault and although I wasn't quite sure what I had done to kill her, I was convinced
that I had somehow caused this to happen. Perhaps, I was being punished by god for a sin or perhaps,
it happened because I had let her cry herself to sleep that night. The fact remained that my child
was dead and "good mother's" do not have dead children.
My husband began to protest loudly about the line of questioning and he demanded we be taken
immediately to the hospital, to see our child. The detectives finally took us to the hospital and
put us in the "bad news room" and the doctor came and insisted we sit down, before he
spoke to us. He began telling us that they had tried this and that and then finally he said the
words that would echo in my ears for a lifetime "she is dead."
The pediatrician whom I so respected and adored broke down and cried when I gave her the news on
the phone. She went back and forth defending the vaccine, that she was told was safe, and blaming it
for killing my child and those who told her it was safe. She then told me that she also had another
patient, an infant boy, die after this same vaccination.
Then the detectives took us home for more questions. Often repeating the same questions several
times until they grew tired of asking them. The questions constantly centered around our
involvement, then they searched the house and checked for signs of forced entry. My husband
repeatedly told them, that he thought the vaccine had killed our child and told them over and over,
about her unusual behavior, since she was vaccinated. Everyone we knew arrived at our house. I made
coffee and tidied the house, like it was any other day and we were having "guests". Shock
is a strange and wonderful thing and of course you don't know you are in it.
My parents finally insisted on taking me to their house for a few days, while my husband and his
friends had the horrendous task, of packing up the nursery because I couldn't stand to look at it
any longer. The room I had so lovingly made was now empty and a source of great pain.
Several days later, after the funeral and the tiny white coffin, that was so small my husband
carried it alone. When I finally came out of shock and allowed myself to cry, it was a river. I
cried for all the things I would never do with my daughter. All the ballet classes I would never
take her to, the wedding I would never attend, the grandchildren I would never know and all the
dreams I would never realize with her. I cried for all that was and all that would never be. There
was an emptiness inside of me that threatened to swallow me up whole, as I fell into the depths of
grief during the darkest days of my life.
The detectives eventually became satisfied, that we had not harmed our daughter in any way and
the investigation into her death ended. We were then left without answers.
The doctors did not want to talk about her death being related in any way to the vaccine and one
after the other, refused to answer our many questions. I was repeatedly told that vaccines were for
"the greater good." I was even told that loss of life through immunization was
"expected" on the war against disease but these losses were considered to be at
"acceptable" levels. However, this did not feel very acceptable or good to me as a mother
with empty arms that ached for my child. The coroner finally told us months later that the cause of
death was determined to be "SIDS" (sudden infant death syndrome) meaning "no known
cause" and refused to release a copy of the autopsy report to us.
It took almost a year for us to obtain this report and to our great horror, we realized that the
autopsy summery was copied directly from the vaccine product monograph under the heading
"Contraindications" as follows. "Sudden infant death syndrome has been reported
following administration of vaccines containing Diphtheria, tetanus toxoids, and pertussis vaccine.
However, the significance of these reports is not clear. One common factor is the age where primary
immunization was done between the age of 2 to 6 months, a period where most sudden infant death
syndromes are found to occur with a peak incidence being at 2 to 4 months."
There was no toxicology testing performed and the pediatrician never filed an adverse vaccine
reaction report with health authorities. I later learned that most vaccine-induced deaths in this
country are listed, as SIDS and SIDS statistics are NOT included in vaccine adverse reaction data,
even if a child dies only a few hours after receiving inoculation. This data is presented to
physicians and the public to reassure them that vaccines are safe.
The governments own literature advises that there has been little or no testing in the area of
vaccine safety or efficacy. Essentially, our children are the test. According to their literature,
immunization is "the most cost effective" way to prevent disease. Nowhere in their
literature does it claim to be the safest. We are trading our children's lives to save the
government money. We are told that the benefits outweigh the risks but many of the diseases that we
vaccinate for are not even life threatening, however the vaccine itself has the potential to kill.
Vaccines kill at a much higher rate than we are led to believe. We play vaccine roulette with our
children's lives and we never know which child will fall victim next.
If the odds are 1 in 500 thousand for death, 1 in 100 thousand for permanent brain injury, 1 in
1700 for seizures and convulsions or one in 100 for adverse reaction are you willing to take that
chance? Are any odds acceptable enough to convince you to gamble with your child's life?
I can assure you that death from vaccination is neither quick nor painless. I helplessly watched
my daughter suffer an excruciatingly slow death as she screamed and arched her back in pain, while
the vaccine did as it was intended to do and assaulted her immature immune system. The poisons used
as preservatives, seeped through her tiny body overwhelming her vital organs one by one until they
collapsed. It is an image that will haunt me forever and I hope no other parent ever has to witness.
A death sentence considered too inhumane for this county's most violent criminals was handed down to
my beautiful, innocent, infant daughter, death by lethal injection.
Today on my daughter's birthday, I will grieve not only for the loss of my own child but for all
the innocent children for which the benefits of vaccines do not outweigh the risks and are
unnecessarily sentenced to death by lethal injection, under the guise of "the greater
good." The true war is not against disease; we have somehow become our own worst enemy by
putting our faith in science instead of nature. Today, I call on all mothers across the world to
join me in putting an end to this senseless slaughter of our most precious resource, our children.
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